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BLOOD ON THE ALTAR

by Scinnlæce

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1.
dance 03:34
dance with me in the living room turn the lights low turn up the music ooo I know you can use it to undo me ya inside of me your world turns in your eyes I see the universe quench your thirst I get free I can make you hurt if you say please takes energy and time and our attention takes energy and time and our attention gotta keep my heart open don’t wanna close it, close it gotta keep my heart open don’t wanna to close it, close it walk with me on this rainy night almost spring time under the pink lights on the clouds the city sounds are all around us now us now us now what does it really matter when it all comes down? and it’s all coming down as we get wetter ya takes energy and time and our attention takes energy and time and our attention gotta keep my heart open don’t wanna close it, close it gotta keep my heart open don’t wanna to close it, close it
2.
tiny waves 03:21
I can dig it out if you want me to with my dirty fingers will you take the bet? I want to linger I do it all for you I want a little bit more it ain't over yet if I hold back until you let them win am I the better man? no one cares or just a cynic so just bite your lip with a slippery grin and do the dare oh go home show me where your love went baby you’re too old to try and fake it now show me where your love went gotta let go of what’s weighing you down. show me where your love went I wake up is it morning? with lines on my face it’s too early so hard I scrub where did we go last night why must they stay? in our dreams in the tub now I’m on my feet twice a day and every step I take just a mermaid wish for my wings alone in a tank how they’d never break oh tiny waves show me where your love went whisk me away from the pain show me where your love went my remains fading in space show me where your love went oh and if I follow in the footsteps of my mother time goes by will I arrive? can’t stop it someday no matter how hard I try but if I’m walking the roads time goes by that my fathers did can’t stop it will I forget why I came? no matter how hard I try time goes by give em no reason to stay can’t stop it no matter how hard I try time goes by if we never fight is there such a thing? will we get it right? to be a human being will we let it go? to love someone else give over control beyond the self oh take me home show me where your love is promise to drive slow down the long river road show me where your love is I let the wind blow in through my open window show me where your love is and in this moment I awoke
3.
or love 04:33
come through come through won’t you? crack my door open to the truth, ya then gimme more of it all this shame I’ve carried all the pain I’ve buried oh and my body oh gets scared ya my body oh gets scared so slow it down turn the dial down feel the ground and breathe with me call them around ohh can you feel them now? the sky surrounds the earth beneath ohh all our little ones each generation can so dear we need to grow them up expand beyond it’s cuz of us they’re here how far we’ve come will we teach them fear or love? still trying to find home teach them fear or love do we teach them fear or love? in our touch teach them fear or love in our gaze teach them fear or love our Bodies teach them fear or love how we play teach them fear or love it’s in our touch teach them fear or love in our gaze teach them fear or love what do you see? what do I see? what do we see? I shake and shake as my bottom lip begins to tremble then I break down before I reassemble weaving streaming of light through the fabric of life who comes through? as I rise new before your eyes bew before your eyes all our little ones each generation can so dear we need to grow them up expand beyond it’s cuz of us they’re here how far we’ve come will we teach them fear or love? still trying to find home teach them fear or love do we teach them fear or love? in our touch teach them fear or love in our gaze teach them fear or love our Bodies teach them fear or love how we play teach them fear or love it’s in our touch teach them fear or love in our gaze teach them fear or love what do you see? what do I see? what do we see? come through come through won’t you? crack my door open to the truth, ya then gimme more of it all this shame I’ve carried all the pain I’ve buried oh and my body oh gets scared ya my body oh gets scared
4.
wind + rain 05:06
let the dance begin all you need to know is playing with, not against down below in context our best defense all you need to know is is to check an be down below checked in the wind oh and in the rain oh in the wind oh and in the rain oh here I stand oh and here I pray oo here I stand oh and here I pray oo Grandmother oh I sing for you oh Grandmother oh I sing for you oh Grandfather oh I sing for you ooo Grandfather oh I sing for you ooo come to me oh and show the way oh come to me oh and show the way oh help me breath for another day help me eat for another day spilling drinks with the family the unseen where we’re eaten as we feast bite back strike the match let the bombs crack have a laugh it’s the real real when we feel feel it’s the real real when we feel feel all you need to know is down below all you need to know is down below unburden the baby what goes down unburden the mother down is up unburden the father oh straight is round unburden the brother you know what unburden the sister oh we go on unburden the other we come in call in the tricksters oh and we die die die to unburden the lovers to begin
5.
the well 06:31
where are you where were you where are you where were you… you’ll find love in the valley o’er these storming hills there the rivers flow with the moon light and the old songs echo through the wells oo the medicine I can take it, you’ll never break me oh how it flows again I can take it, you’ll never break me oo the medicine I can take it, you’ll never break me oh how it flows again I can take it, you’ll never break me you know better than this don’t let em in you’re gonna fuck up your life and there you go spinning around on a lie just swimming in the damn goes down you’re drowning like a little bitch… you’ll find love in the valley o’er these storming hills there the rivers flow with the moon light and the old songs echo through the wells tell me to get on my knees I prayer your heels sets me free yes Sir, if you please gimme what I need to eat hold my neck to the floor so I can smell the earth make me beg you for more until I eat the dirt as my ghost wail and howl as my bones clack pin me down as I meet your smack and ring them out as the walls crack til my tears and the currents splash fill the room oh the medicine all these years oh how it flows again where were you in all directions
6.
myst 04:49
your love is like the summer rain that’s evaporating now so clear was your face how you’re pixelating out I want to wish you away and be done waiting for another betraying oh it’s always the same thing all in time or is it could it be different this time? between you and I my love is like the big lake with the northern winds swelling my waves I want to kiss you like the myst on a storming day feel me crash against your cliffs then break away into my waters you go and when the snow falls heavy on the branches all around you just your breath the forest will hear they say there’s a fire burning somewhere in the darkness becomes the sun for all who near let it be you I don’t want to live in the fantasy let it be you who I love of you and me is it over? when will you come to terms with here I am this life is the one you’ve been given on the horizon, the setting sun and let the world in a little more shining on your shore or is it could it be different this time? between you and I your love is like the summer rain my love is like the big lake that’s evaporating now with the northern winds so clear was your face swelling my waves how you’re pixelating out I want to wish you away I want to kiss you like the myst and be done waiting on a storming day for another betraying feel me crash against your cliffs oh it’s always the same thing then break away or is it could it be different this time? between you and I and when the snow falls heavy on the branches all around you just your breath the forest will hear they say there’s a fire burning somewhere in the darkness becomes the sun for all who near let it be you I don’t want to live in the fantasy let it be you who I love of you and me is it over? when will you come to terms with here I am this life is the one you’ve been given on the horizon, the setting sun and let the world in a little more shining on your shore or is it could it be different this time? between you and I your love is like the summer rain my love is like the big lake that’s evaporating now with the northern winds so clear was your face swelling my waves how you’re pixelating out I want to wish you away I want to kiss you like the myst and be done waiting on a storming day for another betraying feel me crash against your cliffs oh it’s always the same thing then break away or is it could it be different this time? between you and I
7.
stardust 07:46
rocks and bones and river stones rocks and bones and river stones rocks and bones and river stones   stardust stardust falling stardust stardust fallen stardust stardust falling stardust stardust fallen   follow me down  in the mud with the worms let’s be foundations of love beneath mountains of hurt let’s crawl like hidden bugs with beetles flying above we’re tectonic plates oh how we wait to erupt   can we die now before we die by bleeding out give our bodies to the ground here where we lie and pray we sprout   wailing wailing  our tears fall as rain drops we are wailing wailing our tears fall as rain drops   I got a mixing in my belly you got a nose for the smelly come put your fingers in my bowl my sweaty hair salty like the seaweed your hungry stare, swear it’s gonna eat me oh dear this feeling is so old come put your pain and fear in my oven and then get near and queer with our loving so we can deal with what we’ve been told these false beliefs didn’t set us free so here we are rollin round in the weeds of we asking what’s it mean to feel whole and how do we get home
8.
braid 03:51
can I braid your hair will you let me love you with the fear still here do you really want to? and the crickets by the lake what do they say? in the vastness of space it’s the gravity we make that we can hold onto I want to live like us running in the rain with sweat on our skin and blood in our veins as the world’s going insane I know that you can relate I see it in your gaze I didn’t give up on all this is I’ve learned how my love is so generous it’s the back of your neck listening to your sound art it’s the feel of my breath fogging up your car and this nighttime breath has me dreaming we go skating through the sycamore leaves let them cover up our faces call out my name like an echo across the lake is is ever too late to be so awake as the world’s going insane it’s all these choices we make it’s what we create in the mythic life we die to never die we fly behind our eyes into the light the fire glistening it’s our time to shine become a blinding sight late into the night as we dive, we dance and sing can I braid your hair? will you let me love you?
9.
can you feel the echo echo in our ashes as the wild prairie grasses are dancing over our bones we’re the bloom and decay we’re the waves rolling and crashing we’re the thunder flashing and the mushroom people coming out to play do you smell the morning dew with sun peaking through falling on this dry earth do you hear the birds chirping at the first light of a new day’s birth have you seen the stars at night in open sky without any towns around oh it all be found what you’re looking for if you go explore the deep dark inner forest and become the sound of it all coming down before us now Holy Shimmering Moving Shifter of Shapes Glorious Glimmer we’re but illusions we can only change we’re making / we’re breaking we’re creating playing in space and time giving while taking we live and die Sacred Mountain will you come close? say hello let the sound flow through your bones
10.
dream 02:54
sweet dream my love I’ll see you on the other side as your body drops into the dark realm of night where the stars will catch you and hold you in their arms how I long to greet you again at the dawn here we are together now before we part as time goes by we say goodbye to the day and hello to the night

about

Blood on the Altar is a vocally lush and rhythmically pulsing offering to our living earth in these changing times; a death practice and procession of lamentation and praise songs in devotion to the animate world; a collection of enchantments born out of the void of pandemic era isolation, mixed with the longing for connection with the sensual, personal and collective struggles while composting old ghosts, the erotic emergent spirit, the mystery, and the practice of learning to humbly listen to all the beings who make up our whole.

These sonic spells are not about specific personal circumstances, but rather open portals to on-going conversations among varying voices and perspectives, exploring shifting relational landscapes.
Together polyphonic melodies and beats create larger moving mandalas designed to induce trance states and invoke spirits.

I am dedicating this album, in gratitude, to ~
My teachers in spirit: Land, River of Life, Tree of Life, Fae Folk, Guardians of the Heart Temple, Brigid and the Cailleach, Pan, Green Man and Horned Gods, Dionysus, Odin, Norns, Sirens, Keeners, way-back Ancestors, plant and mushroom people, animal kin, Moon, and Mother Death.
My human mentors and fellow practitioners who have held and inspired me during the creation of this album.
My underground community of magical wyrdos who weave with me.
And most of all, to my beloved child Rohan, who is my most profound teacher of love and life - it’s all for you always.

Released July 25, 2022, the day outside time.

Releases on streaming platforms on August 11, 2022, the Aquarius full moon.

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released July 25, 2022

All songs written by Portia Richardson.
Vocals, midi, piano by Portia Richardson, with additional vocals on “Wind + Rain” by Sol Anzorena and Tom Grotewohl.
Beats and synth by Jesse Whitney.
Co-produced by Jesse Whitney and Portia Richardson.
Mastering by Dead Air Studios.
Cover art by Portia Richardson.

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Scinnlaece Minneapolis, Minnesota

Scinnlæce means "witch", or "veiled healer", in Old English.
I chose this name for my artistic project, because I am a witchy healer person of northwestern European descent, connected to the unseen worlds.

You can also find me at: www.portiarichardson.love

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